Sky woman said 12 degrees. BBC man said 11 degrees. Don’t like BBC man. He doesn’t know. Sky woman knows. She said 12 degrees, dry in the West. She knows. I’ve seen her before. Not this year, last year. She was right then.
After weather, tea. Rice today. No tomatoes. Had tomatoes last year. Made me sick. Just rice. No colour. Coloured food’s bad. Make me sick. Not this year, last year. Tomatoes not good. Rice good. Weather good. Sky woman good. BBC man bad. Like tomatoes.
After tea, shower. Apple shampoo. Make hair smell nice. Dirty hair means go to ‘FastCutz’. Don’t like the scissors. Don’t like gowns. Hair cut bad. Clean hair good. Apple shampoo good. Shower good. Long hair good. Brush it nicely, be a smart boy. After shower, bed. Story. Rapunzel, Rapunzel let down your hair. Good reading Mum. Good listening Jordie.
After bed, breakfast. Bread sticks. Not jam. Jam makes me sick. Just breadsticks. Breadsticks good.
After breakfast, school. Taxi. Good sitting Jordie. Mrs Pearce. Mrs Pearce good. Good reading Jordie. Good sitting Jordie. Not Mr Blackwell. Mr Blackwell bad. No hitting Jordie. Time out Jordie. I’ll get him. Not this year, next year. Next year no school. Next year Unit. Next year ‘Oakwoods’. Learn life skills. Stay on Wednesdays. ‘Oakwoods’ good. Nice. Smell like biscuits.
Saturday swimming. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday. Saturday go swimming. Go after breakfast. Nice. Quiet. Not like Sunday. Sunday busy. Lots of kids. Shouting. Splashing. Words go round walls. Too loud. Too much noise. Make me mad. No one shouts on Saturday.
Lady on desk says, ‘Back again.’
Mum says, ‘Every week.’
I say, ‘Hello, my name is Jordie. BBC man said 11 degrees. He doesn’t know.’
Mr Thompson comes. Mrs Thompson died. Old. Very sad Mum said.
He says, ‘Hi, Jordie.’
I say ‘Hi, Mr Thompson. 12 degrees. Dry in the West.’
Water good. Not cold. Makes Mum shiver. Float on top. Wear goggles. Look at bottom. Look at legs. Tiles on floor. Thirty four blue. Three cracked. Dirty plaster in the corner near the steps. Bottom step gone. Close eyes. Put head in water. Everything gone. No noise. No smell. No light. Just heart. Bump, bump, bump. Like that. Mum swims. Up and down, up and down. Has swimming costume with flowers. Don’t get Mum’s hair wet. Get changed in changing room. Don’t stare Jordie. Talc on the floor. Put clothes in locker. 20p. 20p for locker. 20p comes back when we get clothes out. Swimming good.
Sky woman said 23 degrees. Bright sunshine. High pressure. Hot, hot, hot. Don’t like hot. Head hurts. Don’t sleep. Too hot. Sticky.
Last day at school. School finished. No more school. Bye bye Mrs Pearce. Bye Bye Jordie. Be a good boy at ‘Oakwoods’. Don’t want ‘Oakwoods’. Don’t want life skills. Stay over Wednesdays. Take clothes in a bag. Sleep in different bed. Make friends.
Mum said no swimming today. Friend coming. Peter coming. Mum’s friend. Don’t like Peter. Smells bad. Mouth smells bad. Rubbish smells bad. Don’t like Peter. Like swimming. Saturdays go swimming. Mum says Peter special friend. Go out for the day. Go zoo. Don’t want zoo. Want swimming. Animals not good. Dirty. Smells. Mum gives Peter kisses. Holds Peter’s hand. Don’t like Peter. Peter should go. Peter bought balloon. Like tiger. Let go of string. Bye bye balloon. Silly boy.
Mum says change good. School finished. No more school. Bye bye Mrs Pearce. Bye bye Jordie. Be a good boy at ‘Oakwoods’. Don’t want ‘Oakwoods’. Want school. Want Mrs Pearce. Want swimming. Don’t want Peter. Don’t want zoo.
Peter come for tea. Rice.
Peter says, ‘Have some meat Jordie.’
I say, ‘High pressure.’
No. No meat. Don’t like meat. Make me sick, not this year last year had meat. No meat. Bad Peter. Bad boy Jordie. Don’t hit Peter. Put down plate. Oh no, not again. Telly broke. Chair broke. Door broke. Not again Jordie. Not again. No hitting. No breaking. Bad boy. Bad boy. Mum cry. Peter go home. Jordie bad. Mum cry. Sorry. Sorry.
BBC man said 16 degrees. Cooler in the evening. No Sky. No sky woman. New room. New unit. Not ‘Oakwoods’. ‘Oakwoods’ for good boys. Jordie not good. Jordie hits. Jodie broke house. Lots of people. Dinner time noisy. Breakfast time noisy. Tea time noisy. Push me. No swimming. No breadsticks. No apple shampoo. Go in bath. No shower. Shampoo smells like flowers. New bed. Not my bed. Too hot. Hot all the time. Radiator too hot. Cooler in the evening. Too hot. Light on all night. Stop me sleeping. Shapes on wall. Don’t like shapes on wall. Telly switched off after breakfast. No Sky. Do jigsaw. Do painting. Noisy here. Noisy girls. Boy shouts. Shouts at night.
Boy shouts ‘Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!’
Make me mad. No hitting Jordie. Nurse comes. Arm hurts. Sleepy. Not bed time. Not night time. Sleepy all day.
Saturday Mum comes. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday. Mum comes Saturday. Bring breadsticks. Bring apple shampoo. Be good boy until Saturday. Go home. Go home. This year, not next year.
Sky woman said -2 degrees. Snow on the hills. Jordie home. Santa came. Brought music. Put earphones in ears, listen to music. I-Pod. Like Cheryl Cole. Fight for this love. Fight, fight fight for this love. No Peter. Mum said Peter not a good friend. Jordie a good friend. Swimming on Saturday, then New Year. Stay up late. Watch fireworks on telly. Snow on the hills. Bong, bong, bong. Happy New Year. Go to ‘Oakwoods’ in January. Next year,not this year. Next year on Tuesday. No more breaking. No more hitting. Happy New Year. Happy New Year.
Sky woman said 14 degrees. A dry and fine spell of settled weather. BBC man said 13 degrees. Don’t like BBC man. He doesn’t know. Sky woman knows. She said 14 degrees, dry and fine. She knows. I’ve seen her before. Not this year, last year. She was right then.
After weather, tea. Potatoes today. No meat. Had meat last year. Made me sick. Just potato. Potato good. Weather good. Sky woman good.
After tea, shower. Apple shampoo. Make hair smell nice. Shower good. Brush hair nicely, be a smart boy. After shower, bed. Story. Rapunzel, Rapunzel let down your hair. Good reading Mum. Good listening Jordie.
After bed, breakfast. Toast and Jam. Jam good. Make toast and jam at ‘Oakwoods’. Life skills. Toast and jam good. Put jam on toast myself. Clever boy.
After breakfast, ‘Oakwoods’. Taxi. Good sitting Jordie. Joyce. Joyce good. Good painting Jordie. Good sitting Jordie. Stay on Wednesdays. Sleep over. Different bed. Sometimes noisy.
Girl shouts,’No! No! No!’
Screams and cries. Sometimes.
Joyce says,’ Silly girl.’
Light on at night. Shapes on walls. Just shadows. Joyce says just shadows. Shadows good. Close eyes. Wear headphones. Fight fight fight for this love. Everything gone. No light. No noise. Just Fight fight fight. Like that. Home tomorrow. Just stay Wednesdays. Make breakfast with Joyce.
Swimming on Saturday.
‘Hi, Mr Thompson.’
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday. Swimming on Saturday.
Joyce says, ‘Get to sleep Jordie.’
I say, ‘Dry and fine. Settled.’